Home Sick

Can I be homesick for a place that was only my home for a year?

I had a dream today during an entirely too long afternoon nap (it's my day off) about being back in Durango. I was overjoyed to be back. Sometimes I have incredibly vivid dreams and this was one of them. During the dream I took a deep breath and felt the cool, crisp, DRY (it is so stinking humid here!) mountain air. It felt incredible.

How I miss the sights, sounds, and excitement. Like I talked about in a previous post, there is something exciting about being somewhere so new and different. Then again, the newness of a bear made me more scared than I have ever been one night last fall! It's funny that I miss Durango so much when I wasn't all that happy the majority of the time I was there. Went through some definite personal struggles and was horribly lonely during the off season, but for some reason I want to be back. I miss the church and the relationships I was building there. I wanted to start cycling and try new adventures and get out and meet more people. There is such a variety of people there it's always fun to meet someone new. I feel like if I went back I would do better ... get out and meet more people, get involved, take chances, not miss out on all that Durango and Colorado have to offer.

I love this job and love the people here, but Colorado was a dream, and although it was fulfilled in a sense, since I lived there, I still long for it, so maybe it wasn't completely fulfilled. I loved living in Colorado. Period. I loved being out of the midwest! I didn't love being so far away from family, but it was survivable.

Why am I never satisfied!??!?! I wasn't satisfied when I was there, but I miss it. Wasn't satisfied in college, but I'd like to go back and do it over because I feel like now I could do it better. Wasn't satisfied in Indy ... at least I don't feel like going back there!!! Why can't I ever get things right the first time around!??!