Thankful Thursday?

First of all, I don't know why I'm writing this since virtually no one knows this blog exists. O well, I guess I'm just venting.

I know many people write Thankful Thursday blogs. They talk about things they are thankful for in their lives. Its a great way to stay positive, but right now I just can't do it.

Thursdays are my worst day of the week. Strange, I know. I believe it is because Thursday is when everyone starts looking toward the weekend. Only one more day of work and it's here. That's exciting...right? Not for me. I have no one to spend my weekends with. No Friday night movies with the girls, Saturday lunches, or just getting together to take a walk. I have lived in Durango since April 2008 and faithfully attended the same church the entire time, yet I still have no one. Where else am I supposed to meet people? Honestly. Tell me and I'll go.

The lack of human interaction leaves me so depressed I feel paralyzed. I am outgoing, fun loving, and think I can be a pretty good friend, but I am left completely lost. Hurting. Confused. Should I leave Durango? Is this just not the place for me? But I like it. Despite everything I don't feel like I'm ready to go. Maybe I need a new path. I need encouragement and I need friends so very badly.

Please God help me. Lead me and give me strength. If its time to move on I will, just tell me where to go. Please hold me and catch my tears. Bring me to you as that is the only place I can find real peace.